Dreams...

Ever had that experience where the dream you had the night before sets how your day goes? Yeah. Me too. In fact, it happened to me today. I had a dream last night that was the kind of dream that you wish with all your heart could be a reality. In my dream, I was with all my friends, including the one who's moved away, and my subconscious had created a girlfriend for me. She was essentially my dream girl (no pun intended) and we clearly had a great relationship. When I woke up, I felt hopeful for those first few delirious seconds, but then I came crashing back to reality. I was demoralized, as I had these vivid, happy memories of a girl who never existed in the first place. It may have been a wonderful dream, but it effectively ruined my morning, and the rest of my day. It also made me realize just how much I want a relationship right now.

Try new things.

This weekend I went to a thing called a UU rally. It's a church event hosted by a different Unitarian church each time, and it's basically a bunch of UU teenagers getting together and having tons of unstructured fun. Going in, I was somewhat dubious as to whether I'd have a good time. It turned out to be the greatest weekend of my life. I made about thirty new friends, most of whom I got to know before learning their names. By the end of the rally, I was unbelievably sad to leave. It made me realize that I need to try new things more often. The time from now until the next rally is going to seem to drag on, even though it's only a few months.